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Essie (Ace)

    Several weeks after my birthday celebration, my granddaughter Eliya, asked me to take her for a swim at our pool...After Al's passing, Karen asked Essie (Al's devoted Care Taker)  if he would stay in order to keep me company: "So my Mother wouldn't be all by herself in such a big house!" Essie happily agreed and was embraced by all our family members, as if he was always a part it. This time however, Essie was not at home and in spit of  my Ellie's protest, I insisted that we wait to go swimming until he comes back, since we should have always  someone near by, when we go swimming... At one point after his return, Karen and I got out of the pool and began to walk up the stairs, in order to change our wet 'bathing suits             When I slipped... Even though I did not break any limb before, the sharp pain in my left leg, told me it  was broken... I called for Essie, Al's 'Care Taker', who came running and instructed him to phone Karen and Greg as well as calling for an Ambulance! My pain told me, it was not just a 'Simple Fall...After my  arrival to the hospital, I was told that my Left leg was broken in Two Places! It took place on the Seven   of December; the day when the horrifying Murders (Rather 'Slaughter') of a group of sleeping young Israelis, who were celebrating an evening of singing and dancing, during their summer vacation....

   When I came back home with my cast, my young Granddaughter Eliyah, who was sitting on the sofa began to cry when she saw my cast... In spite of the terrible pain, I was doing my best to comfort her: "It will be all right Sweetheart, don't be so scared; I slipped and hurt my leg, not such a big deal! Didn't you ever fall and hurt yourself?" I told her as calmly as I could while cringing with pain... "But you said that  your leg is broken!"; Eliyah answered in a trembling voice. "Don't worry my baby, even if it is broken the doctor would fix it!" I told her... The ambulance took me to the 'Argent Care Clinic' and after a long and painful waiting, the 'Ex Rays' showed that my ankle was broken in two places... I was then fitted with a 'Temporary Cast' and was allowed to go home and make sure to stay in bed, for the following two weeks before going back to the hospital, in order to find out, if the 'Broken Bone' was mending. "In  the case it   is not mending properly, you will have to go back to the hospital for surgery!" I was told...

   After returning home, I was sleeping most of the time, thanks to the powerful 'Pain Killer Medicine'    which the doctors prescribed... Being an active person, made it challenging, as well ad frustrating, to be restricted to Bed! Helen, my friend and 'Spiritual Advisor', said that Humanity is about to move from the 'Third Dimension', which is our present home, to the '5th Dimension', our Spiritual one..."Your job Shira  is to write a book, in order to prepare people for this Highly Important, up coming event!" Ellen told me  Until the accident, I did not find the time to write, since I was always busy; teaching and seeing my clients and friends, as well as working on my P.H.D... It seemed as if the only way to make me sit and write my book, was to"Break a leg", in order to 'Put me down' and load me with the information', regarding all the  "Upcoming Big Changes", which Humanity is about to go through...

    In spite of my optimism and sense of humor, I was having doubts regarding my new 'New Job' of preparing people, for the Up Coming Journey to the 5th Dimension"...In the meantime, I was 'Restricted   to Bed' and was experiencing a new and unfamiliar emotion, of feeling sorry for my self...I  read a lot wrote in my blog, watched Television and was glad to see my friends and the few family members, who came for a visit... My Playful Inner Child, was handing my visitors Crayons and Markers, to decorate my cast; a request which all agreed enthusiastically to fulfill... It was amusing to watch the joy and 'Childish Excitement' on the face of my 'Grown Up' friends, whose 'Playful Inner kids' were set free... It seemed    as if an invisible door opened up, so we could go back in time, to the Care Free Days of our Childhood   the time when there was nothing more exciting, then drawing on the Cast of a broken leg...

   Two weeks later, the doctor called to inform me that the Bone was not mending...             A surgery would be necessary after all and I will have to go back to Cedars Sinai Hospital While in the hospital, I befriended a few of the medical staff members and was sharing with them the information about "Oneness Consciousness and Unconditional Love." My new friends were nodding their heads hesitantly, probably wondering why I was not 'Locked Up' in the  Psychiatric Word... I found a 'Handful of People' (mostly from the Cleaning Crew) who were fascinated by my theories of the 'After Life' and asked for my phone number, so they could come for Hypnosis Sessions, after I leave the hospital...Back home, I was lying in bed and was using Al's old Wheel Chair to move around, 'Feeling sorry for myself ' It was an emotion which was foreign to me... Even though I was always an avid reader, this time I found myself unable to concentrate on a book and was trying to find the right position for my Broken Leg, in   the heavy cast...  I was restless and irritable; which was not at all like me and was spending most of my time in bed, watching Television and other programs, which I usually was not looking at...

   On the morning of October 8th, I woke up early feeling sorry for myself and was turning around in bed, trying to find a more comfortable position for my broken leg   I turned on the television, which during these long weeks of isolation, became my only 'Life Line'  to the outside world and was alarmed and shocked, to learn about the Massacre which took place at the 'Nova Festival' in Israel, where men, women and children were brutally attacked, raped and taken hostage to the Tunnels in Gaza

    I was calling my family members and friends in Israel, in order to find out how they were doing          and found out that people seemed to be in a state of shock! As the days passed on, more terrifying news began to arrive; describing the Brutality and Torture which the kidnapped Israelis were experiencing, at the hands of the"Hamas Terror Organization"... During the first three months after my surgery, I was in bed, with the my phone next to me and was watching with concern, the American and Israeli News on   the T.V... In spite  of my usual Optimism, I was experiencing moments of deep Sadness, unfamiliar Loneliness and and Depression; trying my best, not to sink into Mancholy and Self Pity, which I saw   some of my clients, friends and family members go through from time to time.

   Many years ago, my mother told me that "Turning Old is not a Picnic!"When Karen was three years        old , Al and I used to visit his relatives who moved to Miami after retirement, in order to  escape the cold and freezing winters of new Jersy... I was deeply touched, by the joy and excitement these old relatives welcomed us and the Love they showered on our baby Karen... Their loneliness and longing for their owen grandchildren broke my heart... I was woundering if Al and I would also be going through the   same feelings of lonliness, when we become their age... 

   In order to shake away these gloomy thoughts, I was telling myself:"Delete Delete" and was using      the power of Positive Thinking and my Creative Imagination and Visualization, to chase away these kind of thoughts... However, lying alone in bed and looking at the cast on my broken leg, did not encourage my 'Positive Thinker' to show up... What did help, was spending time with my tiny family; Al, Karen, Greg and my sweet Granddaughter Eliyah... I was talking to some of my 'New friends', who were having some problems with 'Hearing and Seeing', as well as begining to suffer from Dementia and decided to go back to the Meditation, which I learned years before at the 'Center of Actualization I also lowed  myself to shed a few tears during the times when I was feeling sorry for myself...   

   Several mouths would pass before the war in Israel, which was raging for months, will come to an end The Hostages were held in the underground tuneless of Gaza and Israel seemed to be torn apart politically Many in the south of the country, were killed or wounded, before being evacuated to the center of Israel.    It was as if the whole world has been going Mad and the peaceful old way of life, which we experienced until now, will never come back...The few friends in my age group of eighty, were having all kinds of Health Issues like Memory Los and were getting in and out of hospitals...    

   Our familiar way of life, seemed to have changed forever! Waves of Antisemitism began to spread         in the U.S, Europe and other parts of the world... Violent Demonstrations and Political Disagreements  were taking place, almost on a daily basis...On the T.V screen, we could see the violence and chaos in High schools and Universities. Dark rumors about an up coming Third World War, were spreading like black clouds, pushed forward by winds of Hatred... I kept on reminding myself that things are not always bad and life seems to go on after all: Kids are busy with their games and the Spring is on it's way, ready    to paint over the 'Grayness of winter' the beautiful colors of spring... As hard as I tried I was unable to  stop watching the news, about the fate of the captured Israeli soldiers and was concerned for those who were kidnapped and taken to Gaza, trying to keep in touch with family members and  the few close friends I still have in Israel; my beloved vulnerable small country of birth... 

   Even though I am not Religious, I often close my eyes and prey for Peace... Reminding myself that  Hope is stronger then Fear, Laughter wipes away Tears, Joy is greater then Sadness and Love always overcomes Hatered...The recovery of my broken leg was taking a long time...When we celebrated her seventh birthday granddaughter's  seventh birthday, she said to me: "You know Savta, sixth years old is still young, but Seven"..."Wait until you turn Eighty One, like me" I pointed at myself and she burst in to a loud laughter...