New Horizons .V,O X OO

 NEW HORIZONS 

 

 

 

    Today I have very important news to share with you... First, my Brain Tumor has a name: "Tom'"In    Hebrew the word Tum means 'Innocent' or 'Finished and done with!" The results of my last MRI show that in in spite of "My efforts", the Tumor in my brain is refusing to go away... As a matter of fact it grew One Millimeter bigger...  I was told that even if the tumor is 'Not Malignant', it would eventually begin to push on the Brain! Dr Chew, who recommended Surgery "As Soon as Possible!" said there are always patients who prefer 'Chemo Therapy and Radiation' over surgery... which I refused to consider!

  

   My 'Terrified Husband' Al and his 'Fearless Wife' (me), met with a new doctor, in order to establish     the date of my up coming surgery, to remove this 'Unwanted Guest'... I was joking with Al, that I must have 'Created' this Tumor, because of my "Need for the Attention and Complements for my Bravery!"  But he was to worried to laugh... I couldn't understand all the 'Complements for my Bravery', I was receiving from Everyone (Including the Doctors) and was wondering what is the "Big deal"... 

   Was I afraid? "Not at all!"  People were  thinking I must be in Denial, but my family member, close friends and some of my clients; were not at all surprised by my 'Calm Reaction'... They knew I was    never Afraid! I was actually thinking, that this may be an opportunity, to overcome another"Challenge" As  far as I remember I have always been Fearless... Even when I was a child I could not understand why people made such a 'Big Deal' about my 'Lack of Fear'... At one point I was diagnosed with X Insefelites X(Infection of the brain) which caused my hands and legs, to be partially paralyzed for awhile and three years later, I would have to go through another surgery; this time "Hysterectomy", in order to remove 'Ovarian Cancer', known as the "Silent Killer"...  

 

   My complete recovery from these scary 'life-threatening illnesses and surgeries', strengthened my   belief in the  'Power of Positive Thinking' and Visualization, to attract and connect us with Divine Protection... Like my father I was always a Positive Person, believing that just as I got over several      'Life Threatening  Illnesses', I would be able to overcome the threat of a 'Small Brain Tumor'. I was Looking at myself in the mirror and say with Great Conviction: x"The Brain Tumor is Benign and I       am going to Recover!"

 

    As a teacher and later a Psychologist, I feel an obligation to help people learn and understand, that    Fear and other challenges could be overcome! After all, I have been a devoted student of 'Metaphysics'  for most of my adult life... (Probably in my Past Lives as well...) Not Xto many people understand the meaning of 'Past Lives'... I remember a friend telling me how she hates anything which makes her feel 'Unintelligent'... I guess many people feel this way, when they are introduced to New and Unfamiliar Concepts... By the way, I learned that soon "We are going to complete 26,000 Years Cycle of Life and       a New Cycle is about to begin... I will have to collect more information in order to explain it better to my readers, as well as well to myself... 

 

   For years there were rumors how the Mayan Calendar, predicted the end of the world! What people failed to realize, is that this was only 'One part' of the Information'... For quiet a while we have  been told that "Our world is coming to an end"...  However, we were also told that it is "The end of  the world 'As We Know it!  A place of Materialism, Competition, Greed and Wars... This New World, which is coming   to replace our Present One, is a world of 'Peace, Oneness Consciousness and Unconditional Love: The world of the Fifth Dimension!' 
   

 I have lately received more information telling us, that the"18 Basic Laws of our Universe" are beginning to change... One of the most important laws is the one Darwin named "Natural Selection", better known as "The Survival of the Fittest!". These kind of laws are behind the mistaken idea, that "Might is Right!" and could lead to Selfishness, Greed, Competition, Separation, Isolation, Violence and Wars... Until now our world was functioning in the Third Dimension..We are now getting ready to take one more step, which would lead us to a "Renaissance of Consciousness and Unconditional Love!" We are about to move from the 'Survival Mentality' of our present Three Dimensional World of Fears, Hatred and Wars and are getting ready to replace it with a world of Courage, Love and Peace, then move on to the 'Up coming New Age of the 5th Dimension! I can hardly wait... 

 

       Helen Keller said :"The best and most beautiful things in the world, cannot be seen or even                     touched, they must be felt with the heart..."
 

With Love and Light,

Shira

Raw Food As Medicine .V ,O

 RAW FOOD AS MEDICINE

   The Optimum Health Institute, is using a 'Holistic Program' for mental, emotional and physical health    I remember sitting with my daughter Karen under a tree, during one of our several visits; eating Raw food when few small leaves, from the tree above us, fell and landed on our plates...We didn't even bother to remove them! (I can't remember if we ate them as well...) The Nutritional Program in this place is based on organic raw, sprouted vegetables only...The most important "Healing Ingredient" was the 'Wheat Grass Juice', made out of special Grass, growing on the premises, and the Guests 'feed' this grass, into some kind of an "Antique"Juicers and drink it twice a day.There are daily (non-stop) classes and lectures about health and healing, Massages and Daily Enemas; which Karen and I made sure to avoid...

   Television, Cell phones or Computers, are not allowed on the premises ("If you want to get Cancer from the Radiation of these Electronic Devices - do it in your own house!") People are not supposed to talk about 'Negative Topics'; the word "Illness" should be replaced with "Health Opportunity!" During the first three days, I picked at the Raw Veggies in my plate, with a Fake Enthusiasm... The "Meal" was consisted of a few Green Leaves, covered with raw mashed sprouts... The "Salad Dressing", was made out of 'Water and Herbs'...There was no oil (not even Extra Virgin, Cold Pressed olive oil) or a pinch of salt! I didn't realized how much I craved salt, until the fourth day when I was having a Salt Glow Massage and began (Frantically and Obsessively) licking the salt off my arms, ignoring the concerned and frightened looks from the Masseuse...

  The Pounds were melting away from my body, which so far was the only thing I liked... By the fourth day I could no longer stand the 'Mush', so I ate one lettuce leaf for lunch and two Swiss Chard leaves for dinner... On the fifth day, we had the same Green Juice, we received on our first day and decided to name  it "Green Pina Colada"... Towards the afternoon we were so hungry; we found ourselves missing the Mush and devoured the "Crackers", which were made out of Sun Dried Vegetables...

   I have to admit that the "Chef" really tried...  One day we were served "Spaghetti", made out of raw Zucchini, sliced thin (like noodles...) and "Meat Balls" made out of 'Mush', covered with tomato juice (ketchup) meant for the "Pizza"..."Crust" made out of the dry vegetable "Crackers",which were covered with round, raw tomato slices (Salami...) and raw onion slices (French fries?) One of the  women, with   an Italian last name, began to cry, after biting in to her "Pizza"... She probably remembering better meals of Real Pasta and Pizza, covered with Cheese, Salami and Olives, like she used to have at home...

  The green wheat grass, was considered to be the most important ingredient, in this program: It was another torture...  The only way we were able to drink it, was by pouring Cinnamon on top and pinching our nostrils... Now, I gag when I smell Cinnamon, which used to be one of my favorite spices!... However I have to admit, that after hearing how 'Green Juice', could cure and eliminate any skin problem; I smeared some of it on a cut in my arm, as well as a tiny 'Mole' on my left leg and was shocked to discover the next day, that both disappeared! Some people were 'Snorting' this juice, in order to cure their sinus problems others, put it in their Ears and bathed their Eyes in a special glass (which could be purchased at the small gift shop) while others, were pouring green juice in their bath water... Talking about "GOING GREEN!"

   Among the recommendation for 'Healing Methods' was a 'Fast from Speaking', which was a very big challenge for a 'Talker like me'... (Not to speak for a whole day?!) But I did it!  I never realized how much energy we put into talking and how busy the brain is, when we have conversations or arguments... Not speaking for a full day, felt like going back to being a young child, who couldn't speak yet...I noticed how 'Sharp' my 'Hearing' became, as I was listening with amazement, to the sounds of the Tweeting birds, the Barking dogs and Mooing cows... I was Admiring the leaves of the flowers and feeling as if I was going back in time, regressing to the child I have once been: Young and Innocent, who sees Wonder and Joy in everything and everyone around her and was excperiencing, how my emotions, move from Sadness to Joy, Tears to Laughter, Anger to Compassion and was reminded, how years ago, my extremely sensitive three years old daughter Karen asked me:" Does it hurt the Orange when we Peel it?" I was deeply moved by her question and was wondering "How could I 'Protect' such a Sensitive Child, from the Unavoidable 'upcoming Pain' she would  have to experience through out her life?" 

   The speakers reminded us that the Human Race has been slowly 'Poisoning Itself', with Toxic Foods    we put in our mouths and other chemicals like Soap on our skin, Shampoo on our hair, in addition to breathing  the Toxins in the air! I made up my mind that when I come home, I would continue to eat raw food until December 12th; my "Date" with the MRI Machine...  I kept visualizing my Tumor shrinking away and fantasized how my doctor, is looking at the result of my Test and 'Faints with surprise', when he sees how the Tumor disappeared... I also imagined myself picking up the doctor from the floor,'converting him' to Vegetarianism and saving the Human Race from the horrible Illnesses, caused by killing Innocent Helpless Creatures and Eating Them... I would also explain the dangerous of 'Genetically Modified food' and the danger of Combining the 'Wrong Foods', visualizing myself becoming the 'Heroine' of the Animal Kingdom, after saving the poor cows, lambs, pigs, deer, chickens, turkeys, ducks and cute fluffy rabbits from their death!

Bagel and coffee

Doughnut and tea

   On the last day, I said a Tearful Goodbye, to the instructors and  New Friends I made in this Place of Healing...Many were staying longer, but my daughter Karen and I decided to head home, after one week only... Karen missed her friends and I felt very guilty about "Deserting" my 'Clients', my husband and our dog and was feeling great and happy about leaving behind Seven Pounds! At home, I was able to last on the Raw Veggie Diet for three days only... My resolve dissolved, the moment   I smelled the fresh coffee, my husband Al was brewing in the kitchen and couldn't wait for the sweet taste of Doughnut stuffed with Jam, he bought for us; forgetting my promise I made, never Never eat this kind of "Poisoning food" ever ! again...

   Two days later a friend came to see me, bringing flowers and Donuts... It didn't take long, to put back    five of the seven pounds, I was hoping were lost forever... I began to fear I am 'Hopelessly addicted'  to sweets... I also made up my mind, not to eat Red Meat ever again; after the joyous reception I received from Moses, our beloved mix of Toy Poodle of Shiatsu and Maltese... Moses's colors are black and white and at tims, he seems to look like a twelve pound little cow...  When I came home, Moses was actually crying! licking my legs, dancing around me and looking into my eyes, with such longing, devotion and love which made me cry...  I understood what he was trying to say to me: “How could you leave me for so long?! Where have you been? I missed you so much! I was afraid you will never come back...” How could I ever eat anything, which even remotely resemble our Moses?  I decided to become a Vegetarian again...

With Love and Light,
Shira

Naming the Tumor. V. O X

                                                            

    NAMING THE TUMOR

    After reading in the blog about the 'Discovery of my Brain' Tumor, most of my readers, were rather 'Shocked'... Not so much by the discovery of the Tumor, as by the way I was handling this scary event    As far as I can remember I have been Fearless my whole life! This kind of reaction, was not new to me We are often told, that the most important part of our growth, is to learn how to move away from our 'Comfort Zone'; so we can be ready for the long Journey to our Destiny...After sharing the news about   my "New Born Tumor", I asked my readers to help me find a good name for it, and was 'laughing out loud', when I read the suggested names in English, Hebrew and even in Yiddish; which is a mixture of     German and Hebrew, used by the European Jews...    

 

  My dear "Funny Friend" Charles, from Northern California (who is one of my blog readers) sent me    the following name: "This is not a Tumor, it is a 'Matzoh Ball', brought by Jewish ' Extra Terrestrials'  from the planet "Oy-Vay!" ('Bad Problem')... It makes me smile, to realize how glad people are to 'Join     in the Fun', even if the fun is "A Brain Tumor"... When I shared the news about the tumor with my Dentist,he and his nurse joined in the 'Naming Game', suggesting 'Casper' (the ghost). Many other    names, were suggested by friends and family members, who were ready to share in the Fun...

    

"Gone; No more; Darth Vader; Dennis (the Menace); Genie; Expelled and Bye Bye!" My friend 

Janet, suggested Hitch; for a Hitchhiker, who comes and goes away without leaving a trace... Below      are the Hebrew and Yiddish names, sent by friends and family members in Israel, as well as readers         of my blog in California, Florida,  New York, New Jersey and Israel... 

Gidulchik -'Gidul' is Hebrew for Tumor, 'Chick' is  an endearment for something small
Lech lecha! -"Get going!"A quote from the Bible about God talking to Abraham
Chai Zar - An "Extra Terrestrial" (Hebrew for "A 'stranger' from another planet!)
Yablit - A Weed with deep roots, which may be choking and harming Garden Plants 

Yiddish names:

Debuk – A 'Dark Entity'; usually a lost Soul, which enters the body and removed by Exorcism
Mamzer -'Illegitimate child', who is 'dishonest, sneaky and annoying' (a real 'Trouble Maker'!)
Shmate'- A Rag of unwanted left-over fabric, used in Multi Tasks of cleaning and discarded
Tzatzke  -  A toy, also used to describe an Imposter, with some Bad Intentions 

Tzure - Trouble, an Unexpected Problem which needs to be dealt with, as soon as possible

Shlimazl - One who lacks in 'Mazl': Unlucky person, who fails in Everything he does 

Schlumiel - One who can not succeed, in whatever he/she are doing (a close relative of the "Shlimazl")

  The last name, was provided by my Korean Acupuncturist Dr Young, who was having a hard time  naming my tumor... I suggested 'Kimchi' (Korean dish, similar to Sour Kraut) But since our Sens of Humor must be very different; she was looking at me with concern; probably wondering if the Tumor already affected my brain... On December twelve I am scheduled for another MRI... I asked my Doctor    if the Radiation may kill me before the Tumor does and he laughed! (do you think it was funny?) I have been trying to 'Shrink' the Tumor, by using a combination of Humor, Positive Thinking, Meditation and Guided Visualization, together with the powerful 'Energy Work' of "Chinese Pranic Healing"... Please wish me Luck!

 

Our "food"

Optimum Health
Institute

    My "Journey for Healing" took place at the Optimum Health Institute in San Diego; a place which combines several kinds of Healing Methods; for the Body, Mind and Soul... This was my Third visit to this isolated, peaceful place... In my next post I would  share with you, some of the experiences I have gone through, in this lovely place of Peace and Healing... Until then my chin is up, my steps are soft and  my heart is light! I am also looking for reasons to 'Laugh a lot', since I have always believed  and known, that 'Laughter' is the Best Medicine"...

“Laughter is Inner Jogging."
- Norman Cousins

With Love, Light and laughter...

Shira

The Beginning or "Fearless Shira!" V) X X O

                                                       

THE BEGINNING... 

    On Tuesday night, August 21st, 2012, I was getting out of our Jacuzzi in back yard the Back Yard.           and passed  Out...My husband Al and our daughter Karen, were unable to wake me up and I was going  'In and Out' of consciousness. I have a 'Vague Memory' of an Ambulance, taking me to a small Hospital near my house in the Sun Fernando Valley of Los Angeles ... During the few moments of being aware       I was  trying to figure out, what was going on with me? Did I just 'Pass Out' or was it one of the many strange "Spiritual Experiences", I used to have from time to time years ago...The doctor who checked    me said; that because of 'My Age', I will need to have a 'Cat Scan', in order to make sure I did not have a"Stroke"... Even though people tell me I don't look a day over Fifty; I celebrated my sixty X Birthday    two mouths ago. I will Eventually find out that 'A 'Small Tumor', was growing on the left side of my        Brain; "Which needed to be dealt with 'Right Away' in order to find out, whether it was Malignant!

 

   One thing you should know about me, dear readers, is that I am and always was Fearless! Even as a toddler who could barely walk, situations which would scare most the kids 'Half to Death'; would not frighten me at all...During my adult life, I experienced several 'Life Threatening Illnesses' like 'Kidney Tumor', 'Acute Transverse Myelitis', 'Encephalitis' and a small 'Ovarian Cancer requiring "Immediate Hysterectomy!" So fare I came out from these ordeals; without a 'Scratch'! (Well, maybe a few Scars)   Besides my work as a 'PhD Psychologist', I used  'Clinical Hypnotherapy', to help people get over disturbing fears, like Agoraphobia and Claustrophobia (Fear of being 'Locked in a small, closed place)  amoung many others...         

 

    I don't remember much about the hospital I arrived to; except 'Kidding Around' with the Staff, talking  to the young nurses, about the importance of "Positive Thinking" and telling the few Muslim Technicians about the 'Urgent Need' to create a "Universal Brotherhood" in the Middle East!" Several Nurses whos parents came from that Middle East, joined in and we were having a friendly loud discussion; about the Tension between theirs and my small country of birth... I was later told, how amazing it was to meet a 'Patient' (me) who was just diagnosed with 'Brain Tumor' (Not knowing if it was Malignant or not) who was so Fearless and Positive! (I hope you don't mind if I 'Brag a little') ...

       
 The MRI confirmed I indeed have a Tumor growing in my brain, just behind my right eye...Dr  Chou    the Chines Specialist, was saying that even though, the Tumor seems 'Small', it may create avery 'Big Problem'...  My family and friends, who heard the latest 'development'; were very concerned... I on the other hand, did not experience any Fear... I was actually excperiencing, what one may feel, before going  on a 'Great Trip to Unknown Destination'... It is said that 'Laughter' is the only thing which "Fear' is 'afraid of"... I made  up my mind, that instead of worry about this 'Uninvited Guest'; I should be Laughing! So I called my friend Helen, who was suffering from a severe case of Vertigo (Fear of Heights) and inviting her "To bring her 'Vertigo 'for a Play Date with my newly discovered Tumor...Helen was laughing at the 'Idea' and said she would be happy to do it...

 

   XIt is said that whenX "Life gives you Lemons, you can always make Lemonade!" At one time I realized realizing that these two words ('Brain Tumor') could work Miracles... Like the time when I was trying      to make an appointment for the Dentist and was told, that the doctor was Unavailable..." But I just found    out that I have a Brain Tumor!" I said and was Immediately treated with great Concern and Tenderness   as if I was some kind of a very 'Delicate Flower...Maybe in the future, I would be able to receive  'Special Treatment' , when use these two words ("Brain Tumor!") to avoid  the very long 'Bathrooms Lines" at the 'Hollywood Bowl'

   As a 'New Age Therapist', I have been teaching my 'Clients' (Not 'Patients' mind you!) how to use the      power of "Positive Thinking" and other 'Unusual Methods' of healing', to help remove 'Phobias' and other 'Traumas', by using the "Voice Dialogue" method, (which Dr Hal Stone taught us) when removing  old 'Toxic Phobias and Fears"... It seems that my 'Little Brain Tumor', became my helper; since some of my "Clients", who became 'Terrified' by these two wards, realized how their "Small Problems" began to shrink... After all "How important could their 'Fear of Flying' or 'Public Speaking' be  compared my   Brain Tumor?! 

   

With Love and Light

"Fearless Shira"