The Beginning or "Fearless Shira!" V X Marcia Done

                                                       

THE BEGINNING...  

   On Tuesday night, August 21st, 2012, I was getting out of our Jacuzzi in our the back yard and passed    out... My husband Al and our daughter Karen were unable to wake me up and I was going  'In and out      of consciousness"... I vaguely remember an ambulance taking me to a small hospital near our home  in  the Sun Fernando Valley of Los Angeles. During the few moments of being aware, I was trying hard      to figure out, what was going on with me: "Did I just 'Pass Out', or was it another one of the 'Spiritual Experiences' which I used to have from time to time, many years ago?". The doctor who checked me  said that because of my age, I will need to have a 'Cat Scan' in order to make sure that I did not have a Stroke  Even though, people say I do not look a day over fifty, I recently celebrated my sixtieth birthday   I will eventually find out, that a 'Small Tumor' was growing on the left side of my brain which, according to the doctors, would need to be dealt with 'Right Away' in order to find out if this tumor was malignant or not!

 

   One thing you should know about me dear readers, is that I am and always was Fearless! Even as a toddler, who could barely walk, situations which would scare most kids 'Half to Death', never frightened  me. During my adult life I experienced several 'Life Threatening Illnesses', like 'Kidney Tumor', Acute Transverse Myelitis', 'Encephalitis' and a small 'Ovarian Cancer'; which required me to have an "Immediate  Hysterectomy!"... So far, I came out from these 'Ordeals without a 'Scratch'! (Well, maybe a few Scars...)  Working as a 'PhD Psychologist', I have been using 'Clinical Hypnotherapy' to help people overcome disturbing Fears, like Agoraphobia and Claustrophobia; which are fears of being locked in a closed place         

 

  I don't remember much about the hospital I arrived to, except telling the few Muslim technicians about    the 'Urgent Need to create Universal Brotherhood in the Middle East!" Several of the nurses, whose parents came from the Middle East, joined us and we were having a loud and friendly discussion, about the tension between their  Moslem countries and Israel; my small country of birth... I was later told how amazing it was, to meet a 'Patient' (me) who was just diagnosed with 'Brain Tumor' and did not know if    it was Malignant or not, yet was so Fearless and Positive!( I hope you don't mind if I brag a little)...  

       
   The MRI confirmed that indeed, I have a tumor growing in my brain; just behind my right eye...  Doctor  Chou, the Chinese specialist, was saying that even though the Tumor seems 'Small', it eventually  may create a 'Big Problem'... My family and friends, who heard about the 'latest development', were very concerned... I on the other hand did not experience any Fears... I was actually going through what one may feel, before going on a 'Great Trip to an unknown destination'... It is said that 'Laughter' is the only thing which "Fear is afraid of"... So I made up my mind that instead of Worrying about this 'Uninvited Guest' I should be Laughing and so I did...  

 

   I called my friend Helen, who was suffering from severe case of Vertigo (Fear of Heights) inviting her  to bring her 'Vertigo', for a 'Play Date' with my Tumor"... After her 'shock', Helen began to laugh, saying  she would be happy to do so and asked how many people would be at this 'Party'...XI once read, that if life gives us Lemons, we can always make Lemonade"... I also realized, that these two words  ('Brain Tumor') could work Miracles... Like the time when I was trying to make a Dentist Appointment and was told that the doctor was unavailable... "But I just found out that I have a Brain Tumor!" I said  and was immediately treated with great tenderness, as if I was some kind of a delicate flower... I also realized that I would be able to receive a 'Special Treatment', by using these two wards "Brain Tumor', in order to avoid the long lines for the Bathrooms at the 'Hollywood Bowl...

   As a 'New Age Therapist', I have been teaching my 'Clients' (Not 'Patients' mind you!) how to use the    power of "Positive Thinking" and other 'Unusual Methods of healing', in order to help remove Phobias and other Traumas, by using "Voice Dialogue" (which Doctor  Hal Stone created)) in order to remove 'Toxic Phobias and Fears"... It seems that my 'Little Brain Tumor' became my helper; since some of my "Clients", who became terrified' by these two words, realized how small 'Their Problems' were, in compere to mine! After all "How important could their 'Fear of Flying' or of 'Public Speaking' be, in comparison to my Brain Tumor?! 

   

With Love and Light

"Fearless Shira"