The Beginning, or "Fearless Shira!" V O M

                                                       

                                                                    THE   BEGINNING  

   On Tuesday night, August 21st, 2012,  I was getting out of the Jacuzzi in our back yard and passed  out... My husband Al and our daughter Karen, were unable to wake me uפ as I was going in and out  of Consciousness. I vaguely remember an ambulance taking me to the small hospital near our home in  the Sun Fernando Valley of Los Angeles. During the few moments of being aware, I was trying to figure out what was going on with me: ' Did I just 'Pass Out, or was it one of the 'Spiritual Experience' which I used to go from time to time? The doctor told me, that because of 'my age', I will need  to have a 'Cat Scan', in order to make sure, I did not have a Stroke! Even though people say, I do not look a day over fifty, I have recently celebrated my Sixtieth Birthday... A week later, I went for my 'Yearly check up', at my doctors office and was told, that a 'Small Tumor', was growing on the left side of my  brain'...  According to my doctor, the tumor should be dealt with right away, in order to find out i weather it was malignant or not!

 

   One thing you should know about me dear readers, is that I am and always was Fearless! I heard      from my parent that even as a toddler who could barely walk, situations which would scare most of the kids 'Half to Death, never frightened me... During my adult life, I experienced several life threatening illnesses like a Kidney Tumor; Acute Transverse Myelitis'; 'Encephalitis' and a small 'Ovarian Cancer' which required an immediate hysterectomy!"... So far I came out of these 'Ordeals' without a scratch!' (well, maybe a few Scars)... During my work as a 'PhD Psychologist', I have been using 'Clinical Hypnosis'  in order to help people overcome disturbing fears, like Agoraphobia and Claustrophobia and  fears of being 'Locked Up' in a closed place; fears which I personally, never experienced, Thank God!        

 

  I don't remember much about the hospital I arrived to; except telling the few Muslim Technicians, in      the 'Urgent Care Unit', that we should create a "Universal Brotherhood in the Middle East!" Several of   the nurses, whose parents came from the Middle East, joined the conservation and we were having a  loud  and friendly discussion, about the Tension between their Moslem Countries and Israel; my small country of birth... I was later told 'How amazing it was' to meet a 'Patient' (me), who was just diagnosed with a 'Brain Tumor' and did not know yet if it was Malignant or not, yet was so Fearless and Positive!   

       
   The MRI confirmed that a Tumor was growing in my brain; just behind my right eye... Doctor Chou   the Chinese specialist, was saying that even though the Tumor seems 'Small', it may eventually create      a 'Big Problem'... My family and friends, who heard about the 'Latest development'; were very concerned  I on the other hand did not experience any Fears...  Actually I found myself going through an Excitement One may experience, before going on a 'Great Trip to an Unknown Destination'... It is said that 'Laughter' is the only thing "Fear is Afraid of"...  So I made up my mind, that instead of Worrying about this new  "Uninvited Guest', I should be Laughing, which I did...  

 

    I called my friend Helen, who was suffering from a severe case of Vertigo (Fear of Heights) inviting   her to bring her 'Vertigo'  for a 'Play Date' with my Brain Tumor'... Helen began to laugh, saying she would be happy to do so, asking how many people would be at this 'Party'... "If Life gives us Lemons      we can always make Lemonade!" I read some were...At one point I realized that these two words (Brain Tumor) could work Miracles; like the time I was trying to make a Dentist Appointment and was told that the doctor was unavailable:."But I just found out that I have a Brain Tumor!" I said and immediately was treated with great tenderness, as if I was some kind of a delicate flower... I would soon realize that using these two scary wards ("Brain Tumor') could open 'Many Dors, like avoiding long lines for the bathrooms at the 'Hollywood Bowl during intermission...

   As a 'New Age Therapist', I have been teaching my 'Clients' (Not 'Patients' mind you!) how to use       the power of "Positive Thinking", as well as other Unconventional Methods of Healing, in order to help remove Phobias and other Traumas, by using "Voice Dialogue" (created by Doctor Hal Stone) in order to remove 'Toxic Phobias and Fears"... It seemed that my 'Little Brain Tumor', became my big helper, since some of my "Clients" who became 'Terrified' by these two words, realized how small 'Their Problem was in compression to mine! After all, how important could their 'Fears of Flying' or 'Public Speaking' be, next to to my Brain Tumor?! 

   

With Love and Light

"Fearless Shira"