The Beginning or "Fearless Shira!" V) X X O

                                                       

THE BEGINNING... 

    On Tuesday night, August 21st, 2012, I was getting out of our Jacuzzi in back yard the Back Yard.           and passed  Out...My husband Al and our daughter Karen, were unable to wake me up and I was going  'In and Out' of consciousness. I have a 'Vague Memory' of an Ambulance, taking me to a small Hospital near my house in the Sun Fernando Valley of Los Angeles ... During the few moments of being aware       I was  trying to figure out, what was going on with me? Did I just 'Pass Out' or was it one of the many strange "Spiritual Experiences", I used to have from time to time years ago...The doctor who checked    me said; that because of 'My Age', I will need to have a 'Cat Scan', in order to make sure I did not have a"Stroke"... Even though people tell me I don't look a day over Fifty; I celebrated my sixty X Birthday    two mouths ago. I will Eventually find out that 'A 'Small Tumor', was growing on the left side of my        Brain; "Which needed to be dealt with 'Right Away' in order to find out, whether it was Malignant!

 

   One thing you should know about me, dear readers, is that I am and always was Fearless! Even as a toddler who could barely walk, situations which would scare most the kids 'Half to Death'; would not frighten me at all...During my adult life, I experienced several 'Life Threatening Illnesses' like 'Kidney Tumor', 'Acute Transverse Myelitis', 'Encephalitis' and a small 'Ovarian Cancer requiring "Immediate Hysterectomy!" So fare I came out from these ordeals; without a 'Scratch'! (Well, maybe a few Scars)   Besides my work as a 'PhD Psychologist', I used  'Clinical Hypnotherapy', to help people get over disturbing fears, like Agoraphobia and Claustrophobia (Fear of being 'Locked in a small, closed place)  amoung many others...         

 

    I don't remember much about the hospital I arrived to; except 'Kidding Around' with the Staff, talking  to the young nurses, about the importance of "Positive Thinking" and telling the few Muslim Technicians about the 'Urgent Need' to create a "Universal Brotherhood" in the Middle East!" Several Nurses whos parents came from that Middle East, joined in and we were having a friendly loud discussion; about the Tension between theirs and my small country of birth... I was later told, how amazing it was to meet a 'Patient' (me) who was just diagnosed with 'Brain Tumor' (Not knowing if it was Malignant or not) who was so Fearless and Positive! (I hope you don't mind if I 'Brag a little') ...

       
 The MRI confirmed I indeed have a Tumor growing in my brain, just behind my right eye...Dr  Chou    the Chines Specialist, was saying that even though, the Tumor seems 'Small', it may create avery 'Big Problem'...  My family and friends, who heard the latest 'development'; were very concerned... I on the other hand, did not experience any Fear... I was actually excperiencing, what one may feel, before going  on a 'Great Trip to Unknown Destination'... It is said that 'Laughter' is the only thing which "Fear' is 'afraid of"... I made  up my mind, that instead of worry about this 'Uninvited Guest'; I should be Laughing! So I called my friend Helen, who was suffering from a severe case of Vertigo (Fear of Heights) and inviting her "To bring her 'Vertigo 'for a Play Date with my newly discovered Tumor...Helen was laughing at the 'Idea' and said she would be happy to do it...

 

   XIt is said that whenX "Life gives you Lemons, you can always make Lemonade!" At one time I realized realizing that these two words ('Brain Tumor') could work Miracles... Like the time when I was trying      to make an appointment for the Dentist and was told, that the doctor was Unavailable..." But I just found    out that I have a Brain Tumor!" I said and was Immediately treated with great Concern and Tenderness   as if I was some kind of a very 'Delicate Flower...Maybe in the future, I would be able to receive  'Special Treatment' , when use these two words ("Brain Tumor!") to avoid  the very long 'Bathrooms Lines" at the 'Hollywood Bowl'

   As a 'New Age Therapist', I have been teaching my 'Clients' (Not 'Patients' mind you!) how to use the      power of "Positive Thinking" and other 'Unusual Methods' of healing', to help remove 'Phobias' and other 'Traumas', by using the "Voice Dialogue" method, (which Dr Hal Stone taught us) when removing  old 'Toxic Phobias and Fears"... It seems that my 'Little Brain Tumor', became my helper; since some of my "Clients", who became 'Terrified' by these two wards, realized how their "Small Problems" began to shrink... After all "How important could their 'Fear of Flying' or 'Public Speaking' be  compared my   Brain Tumor?! 

   

With Love and Light

"Fearless Shira"